Okay, so this is a new blog...AGAIN! I keep loosing the information (login & email etc.) for my other one and it's time I just start new.
I want to link to it though because it has some of my favourite writings on it and I can't seem to copy them over - so please if you're so inclined - go check it out. It's mostly about New Kids on the Block and ASPERTAME! if you want to know ALL about Aspertame..go check it out. It damn near killed me and if you are a "diet" product consumer, you really should have some facts. I ignored the facts, for years and years and I paid with my health DEARLY!
So the above link is the blog....
yes, it's spelt wrong - don't ask - I don't know.
Lots in life has happened in a very short time and writing has taken a bit of a back burner, time to get back at it and see where it leads me.
I hope you enjoy my blog....I don't write it for anyone but myself - I'm a bit of a lunatic actually, always over analyzing life, people and actions. Always looking for that pot of gold at the end of the rainbow, always trying to grow, learn and improve. Always questioning processes, always trying to stay on top of the game. Its exhausting and I do wish my brain would just Ssshhhh
somedays.
Sometimes life throws curve balls you never see coming. Just when you think you live a boring existence, something or someome comes into it and changes you, sometimes it makes you a better person, sometimes it makes you a not so great person. Sometimes it teaches you something about yourself and you grow. Isn't life all about growing? It's never crystal clear, it's never put in front of you perfectly, no one knows why we are here - we all have to figure it out, some people do, others just wander through life and exist. I for one - will NOT accept simple existence.
I want to be so much more than I am, I want to make a difference in someone's life. I want to love, I want to be a light in someone's life. I want to make a change in the world (albeit I haven't figured that part out) I want to have an amazing Obituary someday haha!
Honestly, I want to get old and I want to look back and think, you know Michelle, you lived the best life you could, you did good kid. And I want to eventually die happy, content and with my Vixen smile and eyes intact.
No one knows how long they have. In the blink of an eye your world as you know it can crash down. You could be healthy today and dead tomorrow.
I have learned the past several months how important it is to be brutally honest, it took me a while to learn this lesson and it has just hit me. Brutally honest and for the most part, we as humans are not cut out for that. We always wonder and worry about what people will think, you always worry what if any consequences you may experience and in doing so you kill a part of yourself. You harbour pain, resentment and it does nothing but make life miserable, complicated and so not fun.
But you get through it, keep going and keep walking that rainbow.
The new title of this blog is "The Rantings of an Angel & Vixen. Yup that's ME! A complete contradiction. I'm an Angel in a Vixen's red leather sometimes..and other times I'm just a plain ol Angel with beautiful wings and other times I'm a straight up Vixen and my wings..they are black....it depends on the day, the mood I'm in and really who I'm interacting with.
At the core I am, I think, a good person. I love my family, my friends and most days I love my life. Sure I'd like things to be a wee bit different but don't we all. That's why we're alive. To keep moving hopefully forwards.
I've had a crazy existence lately, it hasn't been something I ever saw coming, it definately wasn't something I welcomed, but then again maybe I did.
Ever hear a lil known thing called: The Law of Attraction?
It works I'll have you know, it's working in reverse for me right now and hopefully in the next little while it will stop and start moving forwards again. I am working hard at putting my gears into fast forward but I don't want anything to speed up. Good things do come to those that wait. You put your intentions out there, believe them, believe them with everything you have in you and they WILL come true.
It may take a couple of days, it may take years but you can't loose hope and faith. You can't let the Universe dictate what you want in life - you have to go after it. Full of gusto and strength. In doing so you may encounter incredible pain, regret and sadness but isn't that the point. You can't learn a damn thing if everything you wanted fell into your lap.
Cryptic much Michelle? Nope not me, not ever!
You may see both sides, you may only ever see one side. I love that I'm multi-faceted. A part of me gets a wicked kick out of knowing that people can't quite understand me, my motives or what I'm up to. The other side of me says too many things and puts too much out there.
I am opinionated and I will NOT appologize for it. I will do my best to not hurt anyone in the process but my opinions are mine and mine alone.
Welcome to my journey, embrace your inner Angel & Vixen, I fully intend to.......
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